A reminder to myself
Alhamdullilah we are moving into yet another phase of our life. Life has been moving very fast for me now, eversince i got married. it seems that things are happening one after another and sometimes i just dont have enough time to think.
im afraid. As i have always been. The future is unknown and so many possibilities lie ahead. at the same time, im soooo excited to be entering this extremely new phase. It feels like a dream, like the impossible has happened to me. I want it so badly, that it scares me.
" The world is a bridge.
Pass over it, but build no houses upon it.
He who hopes for a day,
may hope for eternity,
but the world endures but an hour.
Spend it in prayer, for the rest is unseen. "
Let's pray all will go well, and may the best come our way.
Friday, January 28, 2005
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Holiday
Back on holiday.....fun with velvias.
saya malas nak keje. saya nak pegi holiday lagi. saya malas nak keje. saya nak pegi holiday lagi. saya malas nak keje. saya nak pegi holiday lagi.
btw, somehow, i think we look better from the back..*sniggers*.....
saya malas nak keje. saya nak pegi holiday lagi. saya malas nak keje. saya nak pegi holiday lagi. saya malas nak keje. saya nak pegi holiday lagi.
btw, somehow, i think we look better from the back..*sniggers*.....
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Amateur grown up
The life of an amateur grown-up
Finally, after 7 years or so, Im going back home.
Back to the estate where my silly, adolescent-laden, puberty stricken memories were created.
I know Singapore is a mere dot, so small, and yet I just like being at that part of Singapore so much. I just don't know why.
Im excited to move, have a place to call my own,
especially since the odds were against us and yet we managed to get the flat we wanted.
last nite, as we took a look at the units left, we tot, damn, we r screwed. all the upper floors were taken and the lower floors were not to our liking. then we found one on the fourth floor. Though we wanted higher floors, there was something about that unit which we liked. maybe coz its facing the road we always drive by or maybe coz its connected to the car park. could be the bright lighting too. i duuno, we just liked it for some reason. but given our queue number, logically, we tot we couldn't get it.
but for some reason or another, we DID get it and im so excited to move..
....and yet...
this would also mean im creating a pile of mess. disrupting the calm of familiarity. change can be messy.
Firstly, changing school will not be easy and at this moment, its just something im not ready to do.
i will miss my colleagues.
i have heard so much about how teaching can be quite a bitchy profession. but alhamdullilah, my school has none of that. at least not too much. i don't know what it will be like in a different school.
Secondly, i will miss the noise and clutter of my nieces and newphew as well as having my sister near me. when the occasional cloud hover over my place, i could just drop by hers to take some sunshine with me. so could my parents.
that can't be done anymore.
and thirdly, looking at all the stuffs at my current place, i wonder how im going to pack and transfer all those into a 92sqm area. and how do i tell my dad nicely that the frames on the wall will look weird at our smaller new place? knowing that he has spent quite a lot on that?
i wish i can stop thinking sometime.
but right now, i have to start thinking about ceramic flooring, kitchen cabinets, lightings, blinds, sofa sets, doors and other EXPENSIVE stuffs that supposedly make a house complete.
sigh.....its no fun being a grown-up!
Finally, after 7 years or so, Im going back home.
Back to the estate where my silly, adolescent-laden, puberty stricken memories were created.
I know Singapore is a mere dot, so small, and yet I just like being at that part of Singapore so much. I just don't know why.
Im excited to move, have a place to call my own,
especially since the odds were against us and yet we managed to get the flat we wanted.
last nite, as we took a look at the units left, we tot, damn, we r screwed. all the upper floors were taken and the lower floors were not to our liking. then we found one on the fourth floor. Though we wanted higher floors, there was something about that unit which we liked. maybe coz its facing the road we always drive by or maybe coz its connected to the car park. could be the bright lighting too. i duuno, we just liked it for some reason. but given our queue number, logically, we tot we couldn't get it.
but for some reason or another, we DID get it and im so excited to move..
....and yet...
this would also mean im creating a pile of mess. disrupting the calm of familiarity. change can be messy.
Firstly, changing school will not be easy and at this moment, its just something im not ready to do.
i will miss my colleagues.
i have heard so much about how teaching can be quite a bitchy profession. but alhamdullilah, my school has none of that. at least not too much. i don't know what it will be like in a different school.
Secondly, i will miss the noise and clutter of my nieces and newphew as well as having my sister near me. when the occasional cloud hover over my place, i could just drop by hers to take some sunshine with me. so could my parents.
that can't be done anymore.
and thirdly, looking at all the stuffs at my current place, i wonder how im going to pack and transfer all those into a 92sqm area. and how do i tell my dad nicely that the frames on the wall will look weird at our smaller new place? knowing that he has spent quite a lot on that?
i wish i can stop thinking sometime.
but right now, i have to start thinking about ceramic flooring, kitchen cabinets, lightings, blinds, sofa sets, doors and other EXPENSIVE stuffs that supposedly make a house complete.
sigh.....its no fun being a grown-up!
Thursday, January 06, 2005
Designipython
Designipython
We were filling up petrol the other day at a certain Bedok Esso station.
we spotted an anoynymous Chinese young man filling up his petrol too.
Like any normal day.
After the full tank, he walked over to the front, opened his bonnet to check on his mighty engines.....
and UNLIKE any normal day,
he found THIS!!!!
Dont ask me how it got there. None of us has a clue, not even the driver.
The days never fail to surprise me nowadays.
Yep, anything is possible. Be it a python in a bonnet or an island being totally wiped out under water in a matter of hours. We shake our heads in disbelief and ask why and how. perhaps the answers are all beyond our limited comprehension. we can only speculate.
and all the time, we will never know the answers.
perhaps, there isnt any at all.
when it comes to HIS decisions,
there isnt a need to explain.
and yet,
even if we do realize that,
even when we do understand fully that we shall never question what HE has brought upon us, coz HE is indeed All Knowing,
and even when we know very well that everyone has to make the exit some day,
and the mode chosen and written for us.
it still can't ease our pain and the anguish that we feel, everytime someone dies, especially in a big scale tragedy as such.
guess the human is made such,
that knowing and understanding just CANNOT stop or prevent how we feel.
We were filling up petrol the other day at a certain Bedok Esso station.
we spotted an anoynymous Chinese young man filling up his petrol too.
Like any normal day.
After the full tank, he walked over to the front, opened his bonnet to check on his mighty engines.....
and UNLIKE any normal day,
he found THIS!!!!
Dont ask me how it got there. None of us has a clue, not even the driver.
The days never fail to surprise me nowadays.
Yep, anything is possible. Be it a python in a bonnet or an island being totally wiped out under water in a matter of hours. We shake our heads in disbelief and ask why and how. perhaps the answers are all beyond our limited comprehension. we can only speculate.
and all the time, we will never know the answers.
perhaps, there isnt any at all.
when it comes to HIS decisions,
there isnt a need to explain.
and yet,
even if we do realize that,
even when we do understand fully that we shall never question what HE has brought upon us, coz HE is indeed All Knowing,
and even when we know very well that everyone has to make the exit some day,
and the mode chosen and written for us.
it still can't ease our pain and the anguish that we feel, everytime someone dies, especially in a big scale tragedy as such.
guess the human is made such,
that knowing and understanding just CANNOT stop or prevent how we feel.
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