You've signed for something and then feel like you are trapped forever. It's not that u totally hate it but you need to get your head above water just for a minute to catch a breath of air. You will be back but all you are asking for is a minute, a break from forever.
Forever scares the heck out of me now. No matter how good somethg may seem, forever will forever be tooooooo long and monotonous. It's like living your life in rewind. Repeatg the same joy, mistakes, thoughts and dreams. The same perspective.
Yes it may qualify as irresponsible behaviour and selfishness to steal that breath of fresh air but shouldn't we try to save ourselves when we know we are falling and probably drowning.
And having people hanging all over you just pulls you down. But they'll manage. I'm sure they will if there's no other choice.
Now if only I can brainwash myself to think that all the above are true.


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