Recently I was reminded that no one person in this planet can fully make you happy. It's impossible to expect happiness from any one person because one day we get reminders that this person has let you down or will let you down. The only way a person can let you down is when you allow that person to be placed high up in your life in the first place, thinking that this person is incapable of hurting you some day.
But the truth is, no one can bring you happiness except HIM. There is no one person in this world that you can fully trust except in HIM.
Thank you for the reminder.
Thank you for the reminder to not remain too attached to any human and not to hold him in impossibly high regard.
Still, even with that realisation, it still hurts when you discover the truth. It still hurts when you realise this person is actually not who you thought he/she is. Why does it hurt when you have already known all along? I have no idea. It still hurts.
Perhaps it hurts because you know your perception of that person has already changed. And it will never be the same again. And you know that something has disappeared and will never return. You also know that no matter how normal life can be after that, slowly it eats you and leaves empty gaps for hatred and bitterness to seep through. And there's no turning back.
Perhaps it also hurts because now you know what that person thinks of you too. And he doesn't think of you as much as you do for him/her. That there is resentment and negative perceptions which he has been having of you. How sweet.
So you live your life as if nothing has happened.
But the truth is everything has changed.
---Just random thoughts. Don't dig in too deep into this and start guessing or making conclusions about what's happening in my life. Thank you.
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Hi, how have you been?
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