Source of strength- never forget

Give me strength to give my best for Ramadhan, to give my best at work, to give my best being a mother to 3 children. For these are the things I want to excel in, I want to get right, I want to feel satisfied about.
These are the things I know I will regret if my best did not come through. For that I need your help, dear God. Coz I know none of these can be done right without you.
The body is weak, the mind is tired. But I can't afford to stop. No matter how desperate I want to pause. Ramadhan will go, my kids will grow up and my work will affect others. So there's really no time to stop.
You won't be reading my blog for sure but you don't need to because you've always known every detailed contents of my heart.
Give me strength, clarity and a good gut. To carry me through these tough times.

20th July- happy birthday Shahid Alim

Happy birthday to my precious one. It seems just like yesterday I held your tiny body in my arms. I was so excited and happy to welcome you into this world.
We love u so much! You are such a smiley and chill baby. Now you are getting more active as you started walking a month ago. Reminds me of your brother! :)
Luv luv luv! Happy first!

Hello walls

B.o.r.e.d

I am not necessary

I am not necessary.

untukmu by trihadzir

Found some songs that never got popular but charming in its own raw way.

tri - untukmu by trihadzir

Untuk teman tidurku, makanku, sayangku

Lihatlah disekililingmu.
Maksudnya mungkin ada di situ.
Diselubungi kehidupan harian, detik degupan yang diguna untuk menyara kehidupan.

Berhutang budi kerana ada yang sudi bermati mati berpegang tanganku kuat walau jasadnya sendiri lemah dari menatang kehidupan seharian.

Tenaga yang datang dari rasa yang terkandung dalam.
Dari senikata dan janji yang terukir lebih sepuluh tahun dulu.

Dan ini buktinya kata kata indah semalam.
Tanganku masih digenggam erat.
Tidak pernah sesaat dilepaskan.
Aku masih disanjung tinggi walau kurang layaknya aku sudah berkali kali terbukti.

Budak budak kecil kita, mereka lah menjadi saksi tanganmu memegang tanganku.
Dan perjalanan kita yang beribu batu, menyara kehidupan.

Masih tidak tinggal indah senikata sayangmu walau lelah tubuhmu, walau semakin terlihat kekurangan ku, walau berapa lama masa sudah berlalu.

Masa akan terus berlalu. Satu hari nanti, andainya aku pergi dulu, dan tangan kau terpaksa kulepaskan, sudah pasti aku masih belum mampu membalas semua sayangmu. Terlalu besar, terlalu indah, terlalu ikhlas. Tidak aku, yang penuh kekurangan ini, mampu.
Tidak mampu.

Thankful

I am thankful for all I have. This is more than enough. A lot more than what i truly deserve. There's really nothing more I should ask for except to be a better person. Why do this shallow mind always forget that?
It's a battle sometimes but at the end of the day, I remember.
What i have now is more than enough. :)

This picture reminds me of a beautiful day. And that every child is a happy loving special one waiting be showered with much love in return.
Good night!

40 degrees

All this while, my kids had never hit 40 degrees when they get a fever. So it was a first time for me to see 40.4 degrees on the thermometer for shahid.

I really hope he gets well soon because it has been 4 days with high temperature despite medication. Brought him to kk and after a blood test and urine test, he was found to be down with viral infection with no major abnormality to his samples. It must be a really bad infection because his temperature continue to waver above 39 whenever his medication is almost due for another dose.

He is generally active but not as much as previously. I think he has lost some weight. The doctor has assured us not to worry even if temp hits 40 and things should get better by Friday, they said. I really hope so.

His face is intermittently changing from
Happy to sad. He's eager to play and be the happy boy he is, but at times he will start crying. I guess he's uncomfortable. Hang in there, boy! I pray it will be over soon!