Sunday, June 13, 2010
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
Happy Birthday !!
Another year has gone by and it's another birthday for my partner in crime!
Happy birthday to the person who has made my world a much better place, who knows me inside out and yet love me regardless.
To the most versatile person I know, who can do anything from cooking, marketing to fixing, troubleshooting and everything else in between. He makes gender roles seem so vague and makes everything look so easy and fuss free.
May he be blessed with good health, tons of patience (very important!heh) and continue to be blessed with amazingly clear insight.
And may happy times linger forever, even when bad times come and go:)
Amin.
Irfan's card for his beloved daddy.
A closer look. By the way, that rectangular thing with a red circle is not a japanese flag. It's a camera hokay! Haha.
His little pressie for his daddy. DIY car with him and alim in it. Takde budget la but still very sweet idea rite. The one in front is his daddy of course, and the one behind is supposed to be him. See how Im not in the picture at all..haiz....ANyway, unfortunately, irfan's 'head' kinda went missing. It must have fallen off somewhere, UHU glue no good la. So it looked like there's only one driver:( Searched high and low for that darn tiny green circle but couldnt find it. Luckily irfan wasnt upset and had a good laugh instead. He cant stop chuckling, saying, "My head dropped off, my head dropped off!"
Dinner @313
Heya, 32 and father of two...who would have known:)
Another year has gone by and it's another birthday for my partner in crime!
Happy birthday to the person who has made my world a much better place, who knows me inside out and yet love me regardless.
To the most versatile person I know, who can do anything from cooking, marketing to fixing, troubleshooting and everything else in between. He makes gender roles seem so vague and makes everything look so easy and fuss free.
May he be blessed with good health, tons of patience (very important!heh) and continue to be blessed with amazingly clear insight.
And may happy times linger forever, even when bad times come and go:)
Amin.
Irfan's card for his beloved daddy.
A closer look. By the way, that rectangular thing with a red circle is not a japanese flag. It's a camera hokay! Haha.
His little pressie for his daddy. DIY car with him and alim in it. Takde budget la but still very sweet idea rite. The one in front is his daddy of course, and the one behind is supposed to be him. See how Im not in the picture at all..haiz....ANyway, unfortunately, irfan's 'head' kinda went missing. It must have fallen off somewhere, UHU glue no good la. So it looked like there's only one driver:( Searched high and low for that darn tiny green circle but couldnt find it. Luckily irfan wasnt upset and had a good laugh instead. He cant stop chuckling, saying, "My head dropped off, my head dropped off!"
Dinner @313
Heya, 32 and father of two...who would have known:)
Sunday, June 06, 2010
Mother of two needs twice the time
Kids are asleep and my fav song is playing. Typing this on our new toy. I luv it:) i rationalised that i need it coz i need something to motivate me to work from home over the hols. Or at least thats what i tell myself. Yes I have plenty to do although its the holidays but boy am i so glad i can sleep in tomorrow morning and i dont have to be anywhere!! Yeahh!!
Been spending all my time with my kids and I just can never ever get enough of them. Alisha surprises me all the time with the things she already knows at 1 year old. She's quite unbelievable and I honestly didnt know what she is capable of doing if not for the time I have with her now. She is repeating everything we say now and she is just like a tiny sponge that absorbs every lil thing she sees and hears.
The other day, I learnt, to my surprise, that she is able to order some numbers. The other day I was just showing my fingers and going, ONE, and lo and behold she said TWO! I thought i was just hearing things or overestimating my child, coz mothers usually think their kid is the smartest and cutest rite? I mean before I was a mother myself, I used to hear some mothers go on and on about how smart their kids are, how cute they are, and I would listen but can never really understand their excitement. But now that I am a mother myself, I am more understanding of all the gushing mothers do coz I do that too sometimes:)
So anyway, just to make sure I heard her right, I said ONE again. And again she said, TWO. So I continued and said THREE and guess what? She said FOUR! I continued with FIVE, and she just looked at me and kept quiet. I think if she had said SIX, I would have fainted or something! So I continued and said SIX..and she looked up at me and she screamed NINE! and she walked away, obviously bored from all the counting and decided to toddle off somewhere else. Im not sure if I heard her correctly for the last one. Could be 'LINE?FINE?MINE???' Hmm..Maybe I was just imagining things...
Im not sure when she picked this up. She enjoys hearing songs from my iphones and one of the songs she liked is that 1,2,3,4,5, once i caught a fish alive song. So I guess she picked it up from there...Im not really sure.
That made me think a lil you know...if not for the hols, my time spent with them is so limited that I would have missed all these things. Even now, I have no idea where she picked that up which goes to show Im not the one exposing her to all these numbers and im not really making a conscious effort in her development.
To tell the truth, I was more gung ho with irfan. Even when he was very young, I showed him flashcards, read to him every night, played all sort of games with him but I must admit, with alisha Im more laid back. Time is a factor and when I do have extra time, I put in the effort with irfan coz he needs it more now. But little did I know, the lil girl is always there observing every lil thing we do and say.
And its probably a girl thing coz she talks quite a bit. She can repeat anything you say even if she has just heard you once. Unlike Irfan, she loves flashcard. Of coz, im not responsible for the flashcards coz honestly, I myself find flashcards a lil boring. Heh.
Alim's mum bought this whole box for her and does it with her when she comes over. And alisha will sit attentively and listen. The other day, someone asked her, 'Where's your head" and she pointed to her head. Then she kept pointing to my cupboard. At first I didnt know what she was referring to and then realized that the box of flashcards was on the cupboard. And the word 'head' was one of the words in the flashcard which my MIL will run through with her! So when I took it out, she gave her toothy grin and looked through the cards excitedly. Me? I was checking the email, had so much work to complete and there she was all by herself, looking at the flashcards.
Haiz..I need more time with my kids. I really dont want to miss anything.
Kids are asleep and my fav song is playing. Typing this on our new toy. I luv it:) i rationalised that i need it coz i need something to motivate me to work from home over the hols. Or at least thats what i tell myself. Yes I have plenty to do although its the holidays but boy am i so glad i can sleep in tomorrow morning and i dont have to be anywhere!! Yeahh!!
Been spending all my time with my kids and I just can never ever get enough of them. Alisha surprises me all the time with the things she already knows at 1 year old. She's quite unbelievable and I honestly didnt know what she is capable of doing if not for the time I have with her now. She is repeating everything we say now and she is just like a tiny sponge that absorbs every lil thing she sees and hears.
The other day, I learnt, to my surprise, that she is able to order some numbers. The other day I was just showing my fingers and going, ONE, and lo and behold she said TWO! I thought i was just hearing things or overestimating my child, coz mothers usually think their kid is the smartest and cutest rite? I mean before I was a mother myself, I used to hear some mothers go on and on about how smart their kids are, how cute they are, and I would listen but can never really understand their excitement. But now that I am a mother myself, I am more understanding of all the gushing mothers do coz I do that too sometimes:)
So anyway, just to make sure I heard her right, I said ONE again. And again she said, TWO. So I continued and said THREE and guess what? She said FOUR! I continued with FIVE, and she just looked at me and kept quiet. I think if she had said SIX, I would have fainted or something! So I continued and said SIX..and she looked up at me and she screamed NINE! and she walked away, obviously bored from all the counting and decided to toddle off somewhere else. Im not sure if I heard her correctly for the last one. Could be 'LINE?FINE?MINE???' Hmm..Maybe I was just imagining things...
Im not sure when she picked this up. She enjoys hearing songs from my iphones and one of the songs she liked is that 1,2,3,4,5, once i caught a fish alive song. So I guess she picked it up from there...Im not really sure.
That made me think a lil you know...if not for the hols, my time spent with them is so limited that I would have missed all these things. Even now, I have no idea where she picked that up which goes to show Im not the one exposing her to all these numbers and im not really making a conscious effort in her development.
To tell the truth, I was more gung ho with irfan. Even when he was very young, I showed him flashcards, read to him every night, played all sort of games with him but I must admit, with alisha Im more laid back. Time is a factor and when I do have extra time, I put in the effort with irfan coz he needs it more now. But little did I know, the lil girl is always there observing every lil thing we do and say.
And its probably a girl thing coz she talks quite a bit. She can repeat anything you say even if she has just heard you once. Unlike Irfan, she loves flashcard. Of coz, im not responsible for the flashcards coz honestly, I myself find flashcards a lil boring. Heh.
Alim's mum bought this whole box for her and does it with her when she comes over. And alisha will sit attentively and listen. The other day, someone asked her, 'Where's your head" and she pointed to her head. Then she kept pointing to my cupboard. At first I didnt know what she was referring to and then realized that the box of flashcards was on the cupboard. And the word 'head' was one of the words in the flashcard which my MIL will run through with her! So when I took it out, she gave her toothy grin and looked through the cards excitedly. Me? I was checking the email, had so much work to complete and there she was all by herself, looking at the flashcards.
Haiz..I need more time with my kids. I really dont want to miss anything.
Monday, May 17, 2010
I'm looking for something
But I'm not sure what it is
There's this nagging voice that keeps ringing in my head
Nothing is out of place
Everything is perfect. As perfect as perfect goes.
But the buts keep coming.
Everyday is becoming more of a dread.
Nights, in anticipation of days, are just depressing.
Days pass in a blur.
Something is missing. I don't know what it is.
It's only at times like this, in the quiet of the night and the kids are fast asleep, that I remember that I'm missing something.
I wonder what is it I'm looking for.
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But I'm not sure what it is
There's this nagging voice that keeps ringing in my head
Nothing is out of place
Everything is perfect. As perfect as perfect goes.
But the buts keep coming.
Everyday is becoming more of a dread.
Nights, in anticipation of days, are just depressing.
Days pass in a blur.
Something is missing. I don't know what it is.
It's only at times like this, in the quiet of the night and the kids are fast asleep, that I remember that I'm missing something.
I wonder what is it I'm looking for.
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Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
A Polka Dot Party!
Just for fun, we decided to go polka dot on that day. So they came with big polka dots and small ones. Those who didnt, had to be creative and stickers came to the rescue. Here are the peektures!
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A brown bear for the brown bear:)
Can you sense the desperation for hair?!
Happy Birthday, my little girl!:)
You are such a wonder. Sometimes we look at you and still cant believe you are ONE. Love u, alisha.
Just for fun, we decided to go polka dot on that day. So they came with big polka dots and small ones. Those who didnt, had to be creative and stickers came to the rescue. Here are the peektures!
<
A brown bear for the brown bear:)
Can you sense the desperation for hair?!
Happy Birthday, my little girl!:)
You are such a wonder. Sometimes we look at you and still cant believe you are ONE. Love u, alisha.
Sunday, May 09, 2010
Saturday, May 01, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Palpitations. Meds too strong? Need to rest and sleep but somehow can't. A lot on my mind and body feels really uncomfortable. Worst flu I had in a long time. I hate antibiotics but my immune system can't do it on its own. Been slacking on the vitamin c.
Neeed some good music now. Probably that cd compilation of old skool local bands will do the trick. Wondering where Alim put it but I suspect he brought it to sch. Darn! That, together with my combi of meds could probably elevate me to a nostalgic high of padres, oddfellows, lilac saints, ordinary people and their likes. Although they do make me feel old. My youth would probably be a lil diff from now and so sitting at the world trade centre listening to these bands play seems like centuries ago. Even world trade centre is now just a mere memory. And the memory of listening to them from a tape on a Walkman at the back of a double decker bus probably seal the deal that my youth WAS a long long time ago. A little like a forgotten dream actually.
Thinking back, it was quite colourful though I must admit most of the time, I never felt like I fitted in.
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Neeed some good music now. Probably that cd compilation of old skool local bands will do the trick. Wondering where Alim put it but I suspect he brought it to sch. Darn! That, together with my combi of meds could probably elevate me to a nostalgic high of padres, oddfellows, lilac saints, ordinary people and their likes. Although they do make me feel old. My youth would probably be a lil diff from now and so sitting at the world trade centre listening to these bands play seems like centuries ago. Even world trade centre is now just a mere memory. And the memory of listening to them from a tape on a Walkman at the back of a double decker bus probably seal the deal that my youth WAS a long long time ago. A little like a forgotten dream actually.
Thinking back, it was quite colourful though I must admit most of the time, I never felt like I fitted in.
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Friday, April 09, 2010
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Feeling depressed, down, constant lump in my throat. I keep seeing images of the healthy 17 year old boy; a captain, a prefect, an athlete, smiling, happy, his whole life ahead of him. And I just can't bear to see him now. My heart hurts, I don't know much about him but it still hurts. His life has chAnged. I don't know what else to do but pray for a miracle.
Strange how seeing him has affected me. My days have been pretty gloomy eversince and I just can't take my mind off him. I think about him all the time and can't imagine what it's like for people closest to him. Sad sad week:(
And for that person closest to me, I admire you for your strength in going through this extremely trying period for you. How u have handled everything is beyond amazing. Stay strong!
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Strange how seeing him has affected me. My days have been pretty gloomy eversince and I just can't take my mind off him. I think about him all the time and can't imagine what it's like for people closest to him. Sad sad week:(
And for that person closest to me, I admire you for your strength in going through this extremely trying period for you. How u have handled everything is beyond amazing. Stay strong!
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Sunday, March 21, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Monday, March 08, 2010
Sunday morning
The boy not happy that his daddy left him. Hey, but your tortoise mummy is still behind u wat?!
Trying to catch up. See who is last?
I'm not really good at running long distance. I'd rather cycle and swim than jog. My stamina is super lousy and I lasted for less than half an hour. Then i felt like fainting, breathless, giddy, nauseous. After that irfan and I rented the bicycle while Alim ran. Yes I'm quite hopeless. BUT I shall not give up. Maybe new shoes will motivate me! Yes new shoes!!!
For now, I just do what I do best. Sit down on my butt and enjoy the breeze...
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The boy not happy that his daddy left him. Hey, but your tortoise mummy is still behind u wat?!
Trying to catch up. See who is last?
I'm not really good at running long distance. I'd rather cycle and swim than jog. My stamina is super lousy and I lasted for less than half an hour. Then i felt like fainting, breathless, giddy, nauseous. After that irfan and I rented the bicycle while Alim ran. Yes I'm quite hopeless. BUT I shall not give up. Maybe new shoes will motivate me! Yes new shoes!!!
For now, I just do what I do best. Sit down on my butt and enjoy the breeze...
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Saturday, March 06, 2010
Like most five year olds, drawing is something he likes to do for now. To quote his exact words, " drawing makes my heart happy, ibu,".
The story for this one, as narrated by him: we are in the red car, on our way to the zoo. We are following the signboard and we are stopping at the red light. The sun is shining, the sky is blue and there is an apple tree. Behind us there are two cars. The last one is a green mini car.Beside us there is the sea all the way to the zoo.
Every bit of his drawing are mostly lil scraps of his experiences put together. The
mini; I told him was my fav car, the sign boards and the drive along the coast is a typical sight during our holiday road trip, the apple tree from one of his storybooks..and so on.
The good thing is drawing usually keeps him quiet for a long time and we get to enjoy some peace and quiet in the house.:)
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The story for this one, as narrated by him: we are in the red car, on our way to the zoo. We are following the signboard and we are stopping at the red light. The sun is shining, the sky is blue and there is an apple tree. Behind us there are two cars. The last one is a green mini car.Beside us there is the sea all the way to the zoo.
Every bit of his drawing are mostly lil scraps of his experiences put together. The
mini; I told him was my fav car, the sign boards and the drive along the coast is a typical sight during our holiday road trip, the apple tree from one of his storybooks..and so on.
The good thing is drawing usually keeps him quiet for a long time and we get to enjoy some peace and quiet in the house.:)
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Wednesday, March 03, 2010
Today is my afternoon duty so I am in school, till about 7.
Marking papers and thinking about where to go for the June hols. Yes..it's a typical teacher syndrome. When we are swarmed by work, we let our minds wander to a happier place. That usually keeps our sanity intact for 6 months.
Anyway, so where do you reckon a couple like us, with two kids in tow CAN go WITHOUT dying of fatique along the way? Without killing each other or throwing the two kids down some picturesque mountain?
We always end up in Australia because it's so family friendly. Alim can drive to his heart's content, Irfan can run around the endless beach till he loses steam and alisha can, well..I dont know what she likes to do other than be carried by me. She is quite choosy, this one. ..And I , I can just stone and enjoy the beach with alisha close to me. We dont need a guided tour as everything is so easily accesible by car. We can shop, rest and find food pretty easily.
we would love to go back europe but historical places would probably be out. Inititally I wanted to go Italy but by the time I get to see the colosseum and leaning tower of pisa, I would probably be all disheveled and tired out. I can just imagine us shouting, "Irfan, come here. Irfan dont touch that! Irfan not too loud!" while he runs around the place, oblivious to his screaming parents. Alisha will be screaming, crying, and i would frantically try to soothe her quickly so that I dont get the glare from the tourists who are busy listening to the guide. The best is when Irfan wants to go to the toilet and there's no toilet in sight and adik is screaming for her milk at the same time!
And all this plus trying to capture a good shot from the muscular DSLR?! Oh man, talking about it is already making me tired! Haiz.
Chaos chaos, all day long!
so italy has been crossed out..hmm next we move on to greece. I cant remember what I was watching on TV but right now all I can think of is SANTORINI! Is it crazy to bring the two kids there? I think its a good balance between seeing some ancient ruins and enjoying the beautiful beatiful islands..imagine the white walls with the blue doors, perched high up overlooking the Aegen Sea. Droolz...
And it's quite a drive- friendly place but im imagining riding on a scooter instead. Of course not possible. Mana nak campak tu dua budak?!
Think it's a good idea?
Someone suggested going to some theme parks. But im not really a fan of theme parks. We did go to gold coast with irfan last 2 years. I guess the only person who will enjoy it is Irfan. But he's not paying, so doesnt matter what he likes...hehhe. Anyway he's too short for most of the rides.
Hmm..so how? The West Coast sounds good too. There are activities for everyone; alim can drive, kids have enough entertainment to keep them occupied and I can SHOP! In some ways, i guess the west coast is similar to oz; the beach, theme parks, shopping....
How? How? How?
Alah susah susah pegi malaysia sudah. Makan puas puas and stay in a nice nice place. Kids swim till they kembang, we also can eat till we meletop!
Confirmed relax and minimal chaos...
But I cant stop thinking of Santorini leh.
Guess I will have to continue dreaming for now. ...
Marking papers and thinking about where to go for the June hols. Yes..it's a typical teacher syndrome. When we are swarmed by work, we let our minds wander to a happier place. That usually keeps our sanity intact for 6 months.
Anyway, so where do you reckon a couple like us, with two kids in tow CAN go WITHOUT dying of fatique along the way? Without killing each other or throwing the two kids down some picturesque mountain?
We always end up in Australia because it's so family friendly. Alim can drive to his heart's content, Irfan can run around the endless beach till he loses steam and alisha can, well..I dont know what she likes to do other than be carried by me. She is quite choosy, this one. ..And I , I can just stone and enjoy the beach with alisha close to me. We dont need a guided tour as everything is so easily accesible by car. We can shop, rest and find food pretty easily.
we would love to go back europe but historical places would probably be out. Inititally I wanted to go Italy but by the time I get to see the colosseum and leaning tower of pisa, I would probably be all disheveled and tired out. I can just imagine us shouting, "Irfan, come here. Irfan dont touch that! Irfan not too loud!" while he runs around the place, oblivious to his screaming parents. Alisha will be screaming, crying, and i would frantically try to soothe her quickly so that I dont get the glare from the tourists who are busy listening to the guide. The best is when Irfan wants to go to the toilet and there's no toilet in sight and adik is screaming for her milk at the same time!
And all this plus trying to capture a good shot from the muscular DSLR?! Oh man, talking about it is already making me tired! Haiz.
Chaos chaos, all day long!
so italy has been crossed out..hmm next we move on to greece. I cant remember what I was watching on TV but right now all I can think of is SANTORINI! Is it crazy to bring the two kids there? I think its a good balance between seeing some ancient ruins and enjoying the beautiful beatiful islands..imagine the white walls with the blue doors, perched high up overlooking the Aegen Sea. Droolz...
And it's quite a drive- friendly place but im imagining riding on a scooter instead. Of course not possible. Mana nak campak tu dua budak?!
Think it's a good idea?
Someone suggested going to some theme parks. But im not really a fan of theme parks. We did go to gold coast with irfan last 2 years. I guess the only person who will enjoy it is Irfan. But he's not paying, so doesnt matter what he likes...hehhe. Anyway he's too short for most of the rides.
Hmm..so how? The West Coast sounds good too. There are activities for everyone; alim can drive, kids have enough entertainment to keep them occupied and I can SHOP! In some ways, i guess the west coast is similar to oz; the beach, theme parks, shopping....
How? How? How?
Alah susah susah pegi malaysia sudah. Makan puas puas and stay in a nice nice place. Kids swim till they kembang, we also can eat till we meletop!
Confirmed relax and minimal chaos...
But I cant stop thinking of Santorini leh.
Guess I will have to continue dreaming for now. ...
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Saturday, February 13, 2010
I was in a bad mood. And I knew it wasn't a good time to sit with irfan to do his writing.but I did. I raised my voice, made him repeat writing the letter many times and even told him if he is not interested he can close his book. What did he do? Sat quietly, looked at me and held his pencil feverishly. But I showed no mercy, I'm crazy that way. I think he was quite stressed out coz suddenly he couldn't write the letter a. His strokes were wrong which made me even frustrated and him even more stressed out. He had never seen me this way and he didn't even dare to budge. He tried and tried but kept getting it wrong. At the back of my mind, i knew it's pointless scolding coz it's emotional and not constructive and no way he's going to learn with the way I'm teaching today. No fun, no games, no encouragement but just me telling him how terrible he is for not knowing when he has written it a million times. He tried again got it wrong again. And I was just mad mad mad.he looked at me. I scowled at him.
And finally, he looked up at me and said this, ever so calmly;
" I am trying my best ibu."
he then carefully moved his lil fingers to write the letters again.
Guilt surrounded me and I became speechless. His words hung in the air for the longest time as i looked at him trying to control his fingers while he keeps glancing at the examples i have written out for him. I didn't know what to say. I wondered where he had learnt those words. To express himself simply and truthfully. To remain calm even when I must have shattered his confidence for a while there. I would have expected him to at whine in protest when I told him to repeat and repeat again. But he didn't.
I immediately calmed down. He looked so kesiannn.
I was really unreasonable that day. And i must say he handled the situation much better than me. Note to self: never let this happen again!
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And finally, he looked up at me and said this, ever so calmly;
" I am trying my best ibu."
he then carefully moved his lil fingers to write the letters again.
Guilt surrounded me and I became speechless. His words hung in the air for the longest time as i looked at him trying to control his fingers while he keeps glancing at the examples i have written out for him. I didn't know what to say. I wondered where he had learnt those words. To express himself simply and truthfully. To remain calm even when I must have shattered his confidence for a while there. I would have expected him to at whine in protest when I told him to repeat and repeat again. But he didn't.
I immediately calmed down. He looked so kesiannn.
I was really unreasonable that day. And i must say he handled the situation much better than me. Note to self: never let this happen again!
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Thursday, February 11, 2010
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