Friday, February 16, 2007

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Im back in NIE after E-learning week last week. Last week, we just had to do online discussions and reflections FROM HOME for the whole week. i really dunno what to hate about this course. well, aside from the travelling of coz.

anyway, last week was a much rested week. i think all these slowing down is turning me into one lazy person and i cannot for the life of me imagine how my life would be like when school really starts for me in Term 3. back to madness, skipped lunches and long hours.

we r now busy preparing for our overseas study trip. my group is going to the phillipines. ?! what luck! we were given a list of countries and had to draw lots. Looking at the kind of luck ive been getting, i wasnt surprised when we didnt have the luck to go NZ and australia, the best two countries on the list. well, then again "best" is subjective.

thr group that is going indonesia ended up going to NZ as well because of the flood and im just praying for something to happen in phillipines just so we could go somehwre else too. hehe. very selfish i noe.

i can list a thousand and one reason why im not keen on this study trip. on the top of my list would definitely be being away from Irfan. how am i going to wave to him at the airport come Mrach? I would be away for the whole one week!! that's the longest i will be leaving him so far.

and then of course, there are the paranoid thoughts of plane rides, Abu Sayaff, guns and a long list of other fears which i am too shy to reveal here. :)
But these paranoid thoughts ae not baseless, hokay!

some said we r lucky to be going phillipines coz, it's not a country u would go to for a hoilday. and if not for opportunity like this, you would never get to see that country.and then there's that beautiful island CEBU, which is a must-see.
it didnt make me feel better.

but go, I must. and march is just round the corner.

and i suspect my bag would be full of instant noodles, canned food instead of clothes coz i heard food is really difficult to get there.

im still trying to psycho the husband to follow me. hehe. i dunt mind phillipines one bit if irfan and husband is around.

oh well.

i will bring mangoes for everyone, though:)

Friday, February 09, 2007

Sunday, January 28, 2007

so last fridday, i was late for class again.
its weird that nothing ever changes.

anyway, it was the taxi driver's fault.
driving at 60 km/h! even if i go out at 6am, it probably wouldnt make a difference.
my classes are usually at 9am, and it usually cost me 25 bucks to get to school.
imagine that!
so it really pisses me off when i get a tortoise for a taxi driver.

finally, when i did reach sch, it was already 9.05am.
and i had to climb the Batu Caves staircase up to my class.
NIE is full of those. arghhh!!

by the time, i finally reached class, it was 9.15am!!!!
i was catching my breath, panting and gasping for air.
the moment i stepped in, everyone turned and stared at me, the tutor included.
so much for entering discreetly and making special effort to turn the door knob as silently as i possibly could.

" so, miss, are you ready to share your thoughts on what u expect from this module?"
alamak, blum sempat letak bag pun.
I couldnt find my voice.

"errr..errr..."
those around me tried to explain what the tutor was asking.
i understand english perfectly fine, thank u very much.
my only problem was, i didnt even know the title of the module!!!!
it was our first lesson for the module and i had no idea what it was about.

"errr...i dunno wat to say....errr..i want to learn how to assess my programmes?" i finally said.

stupid answer.
coz halfway thru the lesson, i relise the module had absolutely NUTHING to do with that.

great. just great.
later on, the tutor came over to me and said
"u look like u left ure thoughts on the bus just now."

at this point, i was getting irritated and really badly wanted to tell him how i actually took the freaking cab, and not the bus, which cost me 25 bucks and still late sumore
coz the driver was a dying snail!
and how even my grandmother can drive faster than the snail cab driver.
and how my legs shivered and quivered, like jelly when i was climbing up the 120 sumthing steps to class.
and how i would appreciate it if he(the tutor) could just stop talking and leave me alone rite now!

but i didnt.
coz im supposed to be the calm and collected sort.
and creating drama is just not my thing
so i smiled and resorted to cursing him under my breath.

n i vowed to come 15 mins ealy next week.
u think can?

Friday, January 19, 2007

Irfan was discharged last Tuesday.
Thank God for that.
I think the nurses at KK pun sujud syukur..
one less maniac patient, bulldozing down the hospital corridors

He is home now, back to his usual tak tau diam self.
but im not complaining.

anyway, im here now, sitting at NIE library, finishing up on commenting on the hundreds of threads in the blackboard.
i find the shorter entries more interesting, i dunno whether anyone bother reading the long ones. so im keeping my comments short n sweet.

and sitting here all alone, with the lappie and music, some memories are fast flooding my mind. NIE sure does have some good memories.
i was dating the last time i was here.
and that itself, made the whole world felt so much different; brighter and chirpier.

but of coz, the one memory that stood out starkly from my mind, was being locked up right here in the library with my , back then, boyfriend, but now, husburnt lah.
well it was a pretty long story, but to cut it short, they closed the library without checking if anyone was still around.
apparently, we were not the only two goons inside, two other people later emerged from some corner and together,
we found ourselves face to face with a locked door and shutters.

the empty libary was still brightly lit, thank god.
but it felt like the movies, where we were transported into some other time zone where other people just disappeared from the face of the earth.
so silent. so empty.

come to think of it, i cant remember now, how we got out. yahh..must ask him later.
but we did in the end.
brought to the security room or sumthin and had our matriculation cards checked, blah blah.
the boyfren wasnt even in NIE then, and was found out.
the guard took that as a way to turn the tables and made it an issue,
when we were the ones, who were wrongfully locked up. cheh!

well, it was quite funny
and so, with that memory and a few others, i do have fond memories of this place.

and now that im back here as a student again,
i sometimes forget that im going home to my own place and a son waiting at home.
and that im not meeting the boyfrien after this and going out for a movie, or town or dinner.
coz that's pretty much the memory associated with this place.

well anyway,
till later....

Monday, January 15, 2007

Grey days

Irfan is in hospital.
Tonite will be our third nite there.
He has bronchiolitis.
We r home to bathe, get changed and grab new clothes.
My parents are taking over the shift for a while.

He isn't as active as usual, but he isnt weak either.
When he is up and about, he'd be doing his rounds, tormenting other patients with his non stop loud chatter.
Other than that, he takes his naps, sits in his cot, fiddling with his toys.
He is not feeding well but his wheezing is not as bad anymore.
He still manages to keep us entertained, in between heavy breathing and wheezing.

We hope he gets better soon.
To come home with us.
So that his toys at home won't look hauntingly still anymore.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Lonely no more

When you are bored and lonely, you just have to make new friends.


hey,are u a girl or a boy?

Friday, January 12, 2007

Lonely


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someone's bored and lonely tonite. daddy's not around to play ball and goof around with.

tonite, it's just u and me.

Friday, January 05, 2007

Random Thoughts

1) Beginning next week, till may,, I'd be a student again. It's a refreshing change, good to break the routine of being a teacher. I'm looking forward to assignments, discussions and some mind exercise. And more time with irfan, I hope.

2) I have some constant in my life.The ones who r always in my life, no matter which year ends and begins. The ones that has been in my life so long, that they see me as I am and never ask for more. Although sometimes i underestimate the importance of my presence,which makes me absent most of the time, im thankful that they are still around. We don't talk often but when we do meet up, nuthing seemed to have changed. The familiarity is what i find comforting. All of us married, some with kids and looking forward to seeing 'the family' getting bigger.

3)On to another set of constant in my life. they have seen me at my worst and very seldom at my best. and yet, they remained. they forgive and truly forget. and they have always supported me in whatever means they are capable of. I hope I have done the same for them too.

4) and there are others I'm still getting to know. so far, i see them as a blessing. In a short while, they have given me so much. And around them, it's hard for me to be at my worst.

5) and of course, there's my best friend. the one who i turn to for every lil thing that happens in my life, both the good and the bad. someone to speak with, about everything, anything and nothing, without having to worry about being judged or misunderstood. The one who can live with my huge fallacies, laziness and failed attempts to be better. N being in the same profession, makes us even closer than before. For that, i m thankful.

6) and then, there's that lil precious diamond that gives us the added sparkle to our life. the one that lights up our days every single day, the one that we would do anything for. that's about the only big responsibility we r ever so glad to have.

There are so many people I love in my life. I just hope at some point, they do realise that.
Coz i think I'm quite lousy when it comes to showing it.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Irfan, Irfan..
The things he does...

What does Irfan do at 7.30am in the morning?



just like mother, u say? Of course! ;)heh macam betol jer.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

so this december, we did our visit to jakarta and brought my parents nearby to kl and bukit tinggi and that pretty much wraps up our holidays out of the country. as usual i couldnt get enuf of holidays but i think i shouldnt be complaining.

december has always been the best mth for me. holidays, freedom to spend time with pple that really mattered and the end year bonus of course.
especially now that i have a son, it even gets better. the amount of time i could spend with him without having to compromise anything is just something im really really delighted about and thankful for. so hooray for holidays.

sidetracking a bit, i think there's sumthing really romantic about indonesia which i couldnt really put my finger on. it's probably the rice fields, or the hills of greenery, or the tea plantations and the image of a certain someone and me riding on a scooter through these tea plantations and the wind blowing across our faces. very romantic.
well, or it could just mean i have been watching too much indonesian love movies and listening to too much indonesian bands. yea, i think the latter is the one.

anyway, im rambling here. i better go do something, actually i still do have work to do and complete. im just choosing to delete it from my memory at the moment.

and besides i have 8 CDs of grey's anatomy season 2 to watch. i bought the dvd and im hooked. i could watch 5 series in a day and can still go on, if not for nature's call or the fact that im dead sleepy. or that im needed somewhere else.

life's good. hooray for holidays!

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Irfan and his cuzzins



Almost 2 mths after his birthday, and presents are still coming in. Of course, he doesnt mind it one bit. Always delighted to receive wrapped up gifts, especially those that come in boxes coz, really, he is more fascinated by the boxes than the toy itself.



i have no idea why, but i was assured that this is normal behaviour. so next time, it'd probably be a good idea to give him empty boxes as gifts. save money and he would definitely play with it longer than any other toy.

i think it's easy to make babies happy, much easier than we think. :)



The present is not even opened yet and he's already over the moon!

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Time Out corner

I screamed at nenek and wailed my lungs out when nenek took away the ladle I was deliciously biting on.
Ibu got very angry.
Ibu said I have to zip my mouth and sit at the time out chair.



This is what you get for having TEACHERS as parents!!!

Friday, November 17, 2006



Yesterday marks the end of the school year for the pupils. And yet another batch has moved on from 'my hands'. It's really fun being kids, there are happy most of the time and harbour no grudges towards anyone for long. I had a lot of fun and pleasant memories with them this year and i will miss them. It's funny but i will always remember the naughty ones more than the rest. Although they really do get on my nerves at that moment but when u think back, u just can't help but to laugh at the silly things they do.
so till next year, when another batch will fall into my hands and be at the mercy of my screams and sacrasm. well,as teachers, we cant do much when they make us angry, can we?
anyway, happy holidays to all teachers out there. we really deserve it, dunt we?

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Ramdhan and hari raya have quickly flown by since i last stepped into blogger. work is pretty hectic at the moment, but i guess that's nuthing new. just when i tot my workload was up to its maximum, i'm always proven wrong time and time again.
i think ill take some blogger space to talk about work , coz i really need to rant about unhappy things. this is not the best place, i noe, but im the only one talking here, so thats gd.

being the exam i/c all on my own was no joke. doing relief planning at the same time was an even greater headache. we all noe, no teacher likes to do relief. and i have to be the bad guy who approaches teachers to do relief early in the morning for the past two weeks. well this is just some minor 'dirty' work that we 2nd floor people have to do. and the pay doenst even cover a tenth of the stress i have to go through, so dunt even try mentioning it.

i got the good luck of being shouted at by an uncooperative teacher first thing in the morning coz i put her down for relief. that really spoiled my whole day. thank god for supportive and understanding colleagues, we had a good time talking unkind things about her behind her back. that was therapeutic.

some were generally helpful and some others were just faking it. they said they dunt mind helping and then tell the rest of the school that they were unhappy with the relief. u can just say in front of my face, really. i was just getting used to being shouted at. sheesh.

two particular days were really bad coz 10 teachers were not around for each day and i was running around like a mad praying mantis. we were also having exams on those two days and being exam i/c, i was desperate for teachers to invigilate. i wished for many things that particular horrible morning; i wished for the school to be on fire, the pSI index to suddenly rise to 200, a flood to break out, just anything that requires everyone to evacuate from school. basically i just wanted to run away!

ok maybe im exaggerating a bit, but the past 2 weeks was really hectic. aside from that, raya was pretty fun and life is good.

so there. i feel better now. tomorrow is the last day im planning relief and wed would be the last of the exams. im sooooo looking forward to that and not to mention, the dec holidays!! CAnnot waaaittttt!!

Thursday, September 28, 2006

First of all, i 'll like to wish this young man, A belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
September does see a lot of birthdays.



my nephew SHEIKh AL HARIS!
I know he will probably be different from how he is now in a few years time. That’s the part I dunt fancy about seeing lil kids growing up.

and speaking of bdays, well i think i kinda got carried away with the birthday gathering at my place last sat. i was so excited over Irfan's and haris's birthday that i dragged the husband to get party stuffs; paper plates, cups, party hats, napkins and even birthday banners and balloons! hehe so unlike me, the always tak kuasa one. people who noe me will noe that im really not much of an organiser.
and i even packed goodie bags for my nieces and nephews comprising of candies, chocolates, party stuffs, like the blowing blowing, noisy thingy (watever u call it), soap bubbles and other funstuffs. so sanggup hor.
actually it wasnt suppose to be a party , more like a small family affair but after putting up the banners and balloons around the house, and after everyone wore the party hats, it DID seem like a party!
of course, irfan is too young to appreciate such things and us adults would like to think that he did enjoy himself. but honestly, i think all the excitement can be quite overwhelming for his lil brain to process. personally i think parties can be a lil too much for any one yr old to take...the noise does get to their heads quite a bit i think.
but he did put on a smile anyway.


the 2 bday boys and their cuzzins. look at the banner! look at the banner!


look at the blowing thingy!

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overdosed on chocolate. look at the plates, the plates!



time to open the presents...with a lot of help of coz.

thank u so much everyone for the presents. to me it doesnt matter wat it is, but i really appreciate the effort in actually bothering to go around and taking the time to hunt for the presents. i really liked each and everyone of them and im sure irfan does too.

ok, that wraps up bday celebrations in september!

and lastly, HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY eryone!
looking forward to the long weekend break. :)

Thursday, September 21, 2006

! HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRFAN!!!!



IRFAN turned ONE yesterday!!!!! HOORAY!!! *throws confetti*



his dad bought him some balloons and tied them to his cot the nite before. he woke up the next morning and got all EXCITED when he saw the balloons.



and he wouldnt leave those balloons alone eversince...

at nite, we bought him a lil cake, just for fun.
He got very excited.
he got SOO excited that he fell off the chair. Im not kidding. He really did!!!!!



BUT that didnt deter him from posing for more pictures. he wiped his tears quickly and pulled himself back up again. Like a true blue ONE YEAR OLD!! Hehhe

Time to smile sumore!!





He was sooooo happy, I tell you.
And we are glad to see him that way!
Happy 1st Birthday Irfan!!

Im sure you'll have more fun this sat when everyone comes over to celebrate september babies in the family! This time, we'll make sure the cake is closer to the ground orite

Monday, September 18, 2006

as promised, some pics from the jakatta trip...


keeping him occupied was crucial to the sanity of all pasenggers onboard.


good morning jakatta!


irfan and his two faithful helpers, serving him breakfast.

then, nenek and atok brought us to an amusement park, Dunia Fantasi..



where irfan took the carousel
and found an orange Rabbit....



we took some other rides, visited a couple of after places and after the tiring day, all irfan wanted to do was to take a cold, long bath..


the 5 days there felt really short and we left with a somewhat heavy heart. im sure they miss him terribly..


Goodbye, nenek and atok...Thank u for everything..Till we meet again, always BE COOL!

Saturday, September 09, 2006

just for your info, my previious entry is unfinished but im just to lazy to post a new one. so i would just leave it at dat.

so...wat have we been up to?
irfan took his first plane ride, to jakatta to pay his grandparents a visit. as expected, he couldnt sit still in the plane, trying his best to squeeze his tiny body pass our legs, to walk along the squeezy aisle.

at some point, he climbed on the seats and started babbling to passengers at the back, some were asleep and were awaken by his screams calling at them,, which were followed by his toothy grin.

at other points, he was standing on the seat, leaning forward and pulling on someone's hair.

i suppose, if it wasnt my kid, id probably be irritated.

anyway, we survived both plane rides. my in laws were thrilled to see him. the last time they saw him, he couldnt walk yet and he didnt have teeth either. so u can imagine their excitement when they saw him.

we went to a couple of places. maybe id put up the pics if i have the time.

irfan and i got our first bday presents from my in-laws too..hhe.

last week was irfan's first lesson at gymboree. read a couple of reviews of the place before signing up. some were good but most were not too positive. but we decided to just give it a go and see if irfan likes it. he enjoyed himself thoroughly. dancing to the music, climbing everywhere and couldnt stop grinning at every new thing he got his hands on. surprisingly, we enjoyed ourselves as well. looking forward to our next lesson morrow.

sigh.....today is sat. tomorrow is sunday. and what comes next? :(((

Friday, September 01, 2006

i never knew how challenging teaching is until i joined the teaching profession. honestly, the prospects of having school holidays was one of the few reasons i joined the teaching profession.

it wasnt coz i had an undying desire to mould the future. or the burning passion to imbibe knowledge into the young minds. neither was it my lifelong ambition. i suppose MOE didnt know all these when they decided to recruit me.

i didnt know what i got myself into until i actually started my career. it was downright difficult, exhausting and very very very demanding. and when put in a situation like this, u either quit or struggle to overcome the challenges. i did the latter and i didnt even have time to think why.

i complain non stop, to everyone around me. and after six years, it made me wonder why im still here. and i realize, somewhere along the line, i have fallen in love with my job without knowing it. i must have loved something about it, if not i would have never been able to withstand the pressures and stress.

like most teachers, i'm here everyday in school for one one reason. the students.
they come to school everyday expecting me to teach them something, waiting to learn with me. they can be downright irritating most times, but u noe they dunt have malicious tots in them like most adults do. they are just innocently being themselves, no pretences.